Currently Listening Girl Next Door By Saving Jane see related

Life is very confusing!!

So ya long time no use. Alot has happened so i will only say that my brother is dead and i miss him sooooooo much more than what anyone knows.  Well besides my family.

Currently Listening Greatest Hits By Guns N' Roses Patience (the original) see related

Jordan told me to look up these lyrics at one time, i will never believe these words from a guy ever again!!!!!!!!!

I am in Baxley, and like totally hate life, and miss jordan more than ever, but i will never get him back...But the real thing is do I really want him back? After all he got stolen from me...and if someone can steal him from me once, then someone can do it again.........things suck..really, they do.

I cry myself to sleep every night, that is how bad things have gotten.  i thought i had reached rock bottom, but apparently not....and i still havn't hit rock bottom, i just keep falling and falling, this depression may never end.....and i hate people.

But ya this crap don't matter to anyone, neither do I so, I am going to mever use xanga again b/c i hate people, and people hate me.

maybe later, we will have to see how much life sux

~Amanda~

Currently Listening Silver Side Up By Nickelback figured you out see related

Okay!! I am soo happy.  ya so what...Jordan and i broke up, but i don't mind anymore.  We are still going to date, but we are dating other people as well.

But, Good has come from that!! My ex and I are talking again, and we are like kinda seeing eachother. I know it is soon but I have cared about him for 2 years.  So we really want to see how things are going to go.

But that is basically everything new in my life.  And this is wierd but I am happy that this is the way things are at the moment.  I just don't want Jordan to get hurt.  If he does I will be pissed at the chick.  And Jordan and I might go to prom together, but more than likely we won't b/c he is dumb like that.

Or this guy Corey, and I will go together.  He dunno either. I really don't want to go alone again.  I will cry if I do.  But hey God has his own plan obviously, cause it did't go my way yet, besides Keith!!!!

Until later then....see ya!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Currently Listening Me & My Gang By Rascal Flatts What hurts the most see related

Corey, I hate you for that message

This song is to Jordan b/c what hurts the most is having soo much to say and just having to let him go....it is hard and i have argued with him about it....which was a mistake, jordan if you are reading this....I am sorry

well, right now i don't care if i get hit by a care or beat up....life has hit rock bottom, and will get worse............................................

Jordan like totally dumped me through e-mail and i like can't stop thinking about him and like can't stop crying....but who cares right??!!!!

Well, i g2g i will try to post something on monday...

~Amanda~

p.s. someone hurt me permenatly

Currently Listening Some Hearts By Carrie Underwood the night before (life goes on) see related

okay, so people are stupid!!!! but ya i don't care anymore. I amin love and that is what matters. and my true friends of course!! And i know you guys know who you are!!! but who cares life goes on so we should not believe rumors!!!!!! so ya there is one going around about me and it just upsets me because it is a total lie!!!

saw it, loved it, had to have it, answer!!!

What would you do if.......

1. I Died?
2. I kissed you?
3. I lived next door to you?
4. I started smoking?
5. I stole something?
6. I was hospitalized?
7. I ran away from home?
8. I got into a fight and you weren’t there?

What do you think about my…..

9. Personality?
10. Eyes?
11. Hair?
12. Family?

Would you:

13. Be my Friend?
14. Keep a secret if I told you one?
15. Hold my hand?
16. Take a bullet for me?
17. Keep in touch?
18. Try and solve my problems?
19. Love me?
20. Date me?

Have you ever…..

21. Lied to make me feel better?
22. Wanted to kiss me?
23. Wanted to kill me?
24. Broke my heart?
25. Thought that I was unbearably annoying?
26. Will you put this on your site for me to do it back to you?